renovasi di dalam progres

when i say resurrection i means i reincarnate myself. the rebirth of soul in new body. i'm concentrating for this coming may10. showing up my skills to the public is something that related with my dignity too anyways so i have to brush-up my rusty skills. besides that, i have to do my works and my photo processing which i try not to exceed the deadline. so there's no time for me to update my blog, myspace, my fotopages and other things that has something to do with me over the internet. people, didn't bring up myself to date doesn't mean i have a boring life. i have more interesting life apart from the internet. ya, i admit i can't live without it but that doesn't meant my life are totally depending on it. so people, let me meditate for a while and don't worry, i'll be back soon when my 'renovasi di dalam progres' is done.



what's repeating in my playlist now : songs from ozzy osbourne, sting and black sabbath.

resurrection!

for the first time - after one and half years - back in action - don't know if i still can do it or not - may10 - mcpa hall - pesawat - insya'allah - see you there...





now playing : sekontena boneka by fathull (fathullistiwa soundscapes)
now addicted : cinta koma

one day, i'm going to grow wings, a chemical reaction

"one day, i'm going to grow wings, a chemical reaction" - radiohead lyrics, 'let down' from the album 'ok computer' - this quotes keep playing in my head while i was driving back home -growing up to be an angel is one of the miracle things that could happen in a life - achieving something beyond expectation makes you feel that you're something to this world - it might be special - but i don't know either it is a special in a good way or not - for me, it is the hardest things to have in my life - i always failed to get the sweetest things no matter how hard i try - there must be something else in the middle that makes my journey didn't reach it's destination - for this time, i keep trying but as usual, things will be the same again - should i retreat or should i surrender? no, i must keep going - i know god hear me.... thank you....



what's in my dvd player now : this is england

kenapa hidup mesti ada banyak keje? arrgghhh!!!

busy - busy - busy - keje banyak - kat opis - bos takder - gi sarawak - tghari - bos call - dari sarawak - "kusha, nanti awak tolong buat report student ye, then tgk la kalau ada borang permohonan yang datang. hari khamis saya balik tapi jumaat mungkin cuti kot. letih la. ok ye kusha!" - uhhh - nak buat report invois - report student - masuk meeting lagi - jawab call lagi - consult student lagi - uuuhhh - ni tak masuk keje fotografi lagi - nak edit lagi - nak select gambar lagi - nak hantar print lagi - aduhhh - sibuk je lebih - kaya ntah bila - "kusha! kau kata kau busy, tapi sempat lak tulis blog!" - kata2 dari seorang opismate yang baru je lalu kat sebelah ni tadi....


now playing : 'spain' by chick corea

when there's no money, art still there...

time saya tulis blog ni, lagu dari pink floyd - money tengah mengalir keluar dari speaker komputer saya. satu-satunya komputer yang ada tampal handyplast kat tepi monitor. ramai yang tanya, "kusha, komputer kau luka ker?" "a'ah tapi jangan tanya sakit apa, ok! dia ada penyakit tersendiri" saya jawab ringkas bagi menamatkan perbualan. kalau tak jawab camtu kang, 4379 soalan lagi akan keluar.

sebenarnya komputer tu tak luka, tak sakit. dia ok....cuma owner dia yang tengah sakit serakang ni...sakit takder duit...ya, saya tengah sengkek tuan-tuan dan puan-puan! bukan sengkek apa, saya tiada masalah dalam perbelanjaan menjalani kehidupan seharian, cuma dalam perniagaan suka-suka yang serius ni ha, agak sakit sikit nak rolling modal, modal pusingan ni terlalu berpusing-pusing macam pusar air kat bermuda triangle.

nature of business saya adalah fotografi, salah satu cabang dalam bidang seni jugak la kiranya. ok, fine, duit banyak sangkut kat client. jadi bila saya nak kos untuk production & upah editor, agak takder duit la nak bayar. ishhh...susah la camni...perjuangan, kehidupan harus diteruskan. semuanya demi sesuap nasi.... so, walaupun takder duit, perjuangan seni haruslah diteruskan jugak. when there's no money, art still there...

kelmarin saya dah terangkan kat orang yang sepatutnya saya bayar dalam mengeluarkan produk saya. saya terangkan kesemuanya dari a sampai za, zb,zc and on and on and on.....supaya dia dapat tahu keadaan sebenar. ye lah, secara automatik saya berasa malu la bila ada lagi payment yg saya tak dapat bayar walaupun dia cakap tak kisah.so, agak lega la sikit lepas explain kat dia dan jawapan yang diberikan pun memuaskan hati kesemua pihak. " x pe awak. x pe..kita faham. kita bkn ada nak guna duit pun now. don't worry ekh!"
tq awak! thank you very much! nasib baik lah awak ni jenis memahami.....


currently addicted to : wolfmother! wolfmother! and still wolfmother!